tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-69640392125581256242023-11-16T13:49:25.899-05:00InklingsMusings from the mind of Hazel May.hazelmayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14005835410158700757noreply@blogger.comBlogger10125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6964039212558125624.post-19791989191397171182011-10-16T20:28:00.002-04:002011-10-16T20:33:38.713-04:00Batteries Are Included<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj601W29c4mx6xoFhCqgsuw7IVhJkXiXLkMLrcntD0MTEJnAzgTtIbeOAQNZZvH4jGGEvzdo0waflhYepiI5VttWb9Nv5iVujp-A9HT9Pd6RZDhfdXn2SAFcCPqXtedmjsHV8-5xx1F2lo/s1600/more-energy.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear:right; float:right; margin-left:1em; margin-bottom:1em"><img border="0" height="320" width="236" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj601W29c4mx6xoFhCqgsuw7IVhJkXiXLkMLrcntD0MTEJnAzgTtIbeOAQNZZvH4jGGEvzdo0waflhYepiI5VttWb9Nv5iVujp-A9HT9Pd6RZDhfdXn2SAFcCPqXtedmjsHV8-5xx1F2lo/s320/more-energy.jpg" /></a></div><br />
Ok ok. I just left my blog all lonely and neglected all summer. How awful of me!<br />
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Here I am, ready to throw my two cents into the vast waters of blogdom. I've had lots of dreams and visions and insights lately. I've battled a few medical issues. Summer passed by too quickly, but autumn has been warm, inviting and glorious, so who's complaining? (At least, at the moment, I'm not complaining.)<br />
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I sat down in my 'God Corner' today. It's a little corner at the end of my sofa where I read scriptures, pray, chat it up with God and worship Him. I love my little spot. Not that I don't talk to Him in other places, but that is kind of... our special place. I will sit down and say, "I'm here." And then, it doesn't take long before I feel Him come to meet with me. I mean, He's here all the time, but there's more. It's a meeting place.<br />
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I was sitting there telling God how good He is. I'm bothered right now because there is a real onslaught of voices and writings out there that are attacking the goodness of God. People are saying and writing that He is not good. There are false accusations, slander and libel coming from every direction.<br />
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I don't mean the standard, "Why does God let bad things happen?" questions. I mean, out and out accusations from people. I've heard people accuse God of being mean, a bigot (how can God be a bigot... He made everything, so if He says something is a certain way, then it is... I have never had a cake ask me why I made it chocolate instead of lemon and then call me a bigot for that). I've just seen and heard so many derogatory things and I can handle honest questions or someone who's hurt ranting and venting. This is more than that.<br />
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It's like... they're slandering my best friend. They have no idea who He is. They don't even talk to Him... except to berate Him, but they presume to know His character. They breathe the air He gave them. Their heart beats because He allows it. They eat food He created. They enjoy nature, music, love, joy, sunsets, chocolate, seasons, family and... then just sneer in God's face and say He isn't good. Well, we don't deserve any of this stuff we enjoy. Does the sun only shine on 'good' Christians? It shines on everybody... even murderers. God is good and His goodness shines on, even when we do reprehensible things and hate Him. He doesn't just turn the sun off... or the air... we still have His goodness all the time every day.<br />
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I talked to God about this today. I said, 'Here we are, strutting and boasting about how strong and tough we are and how we have accomplished everything in our lives on our own.' As soon as I said that, a picture instantly popped into my head... one of those 'parable' moments. I saw a child's toy sitting on the floor. It was a battery operated toy zooming all over the place.<br />
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God said, "It's like that toy is telling everybody that it is going across the floor by its own power." And I laughed. Uh huh... it's the batteries. It's not going anywhere without power given to it by the batteries.<br />
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I hate to break it to this arrogant human race, but... we're the electronic toy. God is the batteries. No batteries. No zoom zoom. That is how good God is. No matter how many times somebody blathers on about how amazing they are, the batteries just keep on pouring the juice into us. We deserve to sit here without the batteries. We don't say thanks. We don't acknowledge He's there. We accuse Him for the rotten stuff that we humans are doing ourselves. He doesn't just take the batteries away. He still, in His faithfulness and kindness and goodness, keeps us zooming right along.<br />
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Thank you, God, for being my batteries. You do realize that after giving me a parable like that, whenever I think of you being my batteries, I won't be able to help myself. I will see you as a fluffy pink bunny...hazelmayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14005835410158700757noreply@blogger.com0Ottawa, ON, Canada45.411572 -75.69819445.1241485 -76.251853 45.6989955 -75.144535tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6964039212558125624.post-60101932499158139022011-05-02T14:11:00.001-04:002011-05-02T14:18:54.044-04:00Reflections on Bin Laden's Death<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">I was about to go to bed. I was in my pajamas, sitting in front of my computer screen, checking email and social networking sites before shutting everything off for the night.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">The first thing I saw was a Facebook status that said. “I don't believe their claims.” I didn't know what that meant. It felt like I had dropped in in the middle of a conversation. </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">Then, I saw a status that said, “CNN has the news, but none of the world news sites have it.” </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">That made me curious. My journalist's nose is as sharp as a hound and as relentless as a cat pursuing a mouse. I had to know, so I clicked on CNN's website and saw the headline, “Osama Bin Laden Dead.”</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">I know those American news sites. Sometimes they jump the gun, so I thought I'd better google what the world was saying. I went to the BBC and I went to the CBC and they confirmed it. I clicked the live feed from CBC News just as they cut to Barack Obama giving a live address to the nation. It was around 11:30 pm, an odd time of day for a president to be giving an address.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">So, I sat there, in my pajamas, my mouth agape, my heart racing, my mind wondering if I was having a weird dream that would leave me scratching my head come morning. No. This was real. This wasn't speculation. The president gave a succinct, eloquent and hopeful speech while footage in the right hand corner of the screen showed a tumult of people gathering on the White House lawn screaming, cheering and waving flags. </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">Tears welled up in my eyes. Could it be? They got the monster? Look at my American neighbours. Look at them in Washington DC. Look at them in New York City. Look at them in the stadium in Philly. In ten years, I have not seen that look they used to have before those planes struck the towers. There it is! There's that look! Call it hope or pride or self confidence. Despite all of their brave words and rhetoric, I had not seen THAT look on the faces of Americans since September 10, 2001. </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">I also saw that nobody was asking if they were Republicans or Democrats. Everyone was just converging together in a large, impromptu flash mob, celebrating that the one that got away... didn't. It took ten years, but justice was done. </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">Flash back ten years. Where was I, the Canadian, just before 9 o'clock in the morning on September 11, 2001? I know exactly where I was. I was sitting on my sofa watching TV on the Global Television Network. I was watching 100 Huntley Street with Lorna Dueck and I think the other host was David Mainse' son. </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">Lorna said, “The TV station is cutting our feed and going live to New York City. Something is happening there.” </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">I saw one of the towers in the World Trade Centre on fire and people were speculating that there had been a terrible airplane accident. As they were talking, I watched, on a live feed, as a second plane came into view and smashed into the second tower. I remember screaming that this could not be an accident. I watched for a few more minutes, but I felt so horrified that I suddenly didn't want to be alone, so I ran down the stairs to the street where people were milling about, oblivious and shopping. I said, “Turn on your radios. There's been a terrorist attack in New York. The twin towers are burning.”<br />
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</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">I hurried over to my brother Howie's house. We sat together and somberly watched the events unfold. He told me that another plane had hit the Pentagon and then we learned that another plane had crashed in a field in Pennsylvania.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">I bawled my face off watching people leaping to their deaths, choosing to die that way rather than burning to death. Oh what a great choice that was! Burn or hit the pavement from a hundred floors up. It was horrific to know that these were real people with real lives dying in absolute terror and their families would be left to find them, grieve for them and live without them. </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">I was very proud of Gander, Newfoundland for taking care of passengers who were stranded when all flights were grounded. We were doing our part. Canadians gathered, 100 000 strong to support America at Parliament Hill and brought the US ambassador to grateful tears as he said, “Truly. You are our best friend.”</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">My children were teenagers. Anthony was 16 and Kendra was 15 at the time. Tristan (my best friend's son) was 13. I remember clearly that they sat down with us that night. They were solemn and scared and full of questions. My son, Anthony, asked me “Mom. Is this the end of the world?” Those terrorists had managed to terrorize, not only the poor victims and their families in those towers, not only the Americans, but they had managed to terrorize my children too! We were all afraid. </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">Twenty-four Canadians died in those attacks. Millions more were paralyzed with grief and fear for our American friends, for ourselves and for freedom and democracy itself. It felt like a death knell for life as we knew it.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">Many fellow Christians say I shouldn't rejoice that a person has died. Usually, I would agree. It is at the core of my belief system that I hold human life with the highest respect. I believe we are all created by God for a purpose and we choose to fulfill that purpose or not. I don't dance for joy when human beings die, not even when they were in the wrong.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">Still, I find jubilation in my heart. If I had been close enough to Ground Zero or Washington, I could picture myself running out into the street, singing and dancing as if I had just been released from a prison, of sorts. The man who tried to rob the free world of security, hope, faith and joy... is dead. </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">Should I grieve for the man who made my children tremble? If he had stood before me, I would have killed him with my bare hands. Not out of hatred, but out of the fiercest maternal instinct imaginable. This was not vengeance in the sense of killing the person you hate. This was justice. This was necessary. This was death to the figurehead for tyranny and the resurrection of all that is good and decent about America and the civilized nations of the world.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">His death was announced on the same day that Adolph Hitler's death was announced, 66 years later.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">This is the closest that most of us will get to knowing how the allied nations felt on VE Day, when everyone ran out to the streets and cheered and complete strangers kissed each other for joy.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">I still find myself very emotional. This man left a traumatic bruise on the souls of so many of us. He relished the fear he caused. He rejoiced in the deaths of civilians... even those who follow Islam. Hello! He would kill anyone, even his own people. This man represented the most heinous depravity known to the human race.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
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</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">So, no. I'm not saying I rejoice that a person died, and yet I do rejoice that he is gone. His ideology will try to live on and regroup. I have no delusions that our job is done, but I don't apologize for feeling relief, joy and hope now that their figurehead is standing before God, trembling the way he made my children tremble. I don't think he's so cocky today. I suppose he has figured out that there are no virgins waiting for him. </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">I'm thankful to God and to the American president, the secret service, the soldiers who carried this out. I'm sure the story, as it unfolds, will become legendary. </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">May the families of the victims find some closure. May the military families who have lost loved ones in battle know that their sacrifice was not in vain. May the American people begin to heal the rifts caused by fear and the reactions of government officials and civilians to it. </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">Enjoy this moment, America. Embrace your fellow citizens regardless of their political persuasion. This is not a partisan victory. It is a victory for every single one of you. You can battle out your politics tomorrow. Not today. Not the day you got to shout, “Ding! Dong! The witch is dead!”</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">What do I feel like doing now? I want to click on an old Elton John song. “I'm still standing better than I ever did... Looking like a true survivor... feeling like a little kid... I'm still standing... yeah yeah yeah...”</div>hazelmayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14005835410158700757noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6964039212558125624.post-32998068526753414342011-03-27T00:00:00.000-04:002011-03-27T00:00:56.450-04:00Light and DarknessI was going to blog once a week. That didn't work out, did it? That's all right. There is NOT a test at the end of this exercise. Let's set a goal again and see how often I can blog before summer comes.<br />
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I was talking to my best friend on the phone on Friday night and I had a vision. It only lasted a few seconds, but when I started praying on Saturday morning, I saw it again. It was vivid and simple and it had such an amazing meaning. It was really encouraging too.<br />
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I was talking to my best friend about the dark things in people's lives. You know, the stuff that it can be hard to get rid of, like bad habits, anger, hate, bitterness. These are the shadows that we all struggle with and we want to overcome them. At least, we should. Not just because they're 'sins', but because they hurt others and they hurt us. For example, unforgiveness... that's like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die.<br />
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Anyway, I was discussing how some religious, well-meaning folks are forever hitting people over the heads with their sins their sins their sins. Sure. We need to get rid of these things. I agree. I don't want to be bitter or angry or spiteful, but I believe we put the cart before the horse.<br />
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How can anybody really let go of their pet habits, sins and vices until they no longer need them for security and comfort? Many people are too fragile to just let go of these things. It's all they've got to hold onto, or so they think. They've been taught that God is way up in the sky holding a bolt of lightning and as soon as we screw up, He's just relishing the idea of zapping us with it. What a load of baloney.<br />
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I'm not saying He likes what we do. If we don't ask Him to help us, these things can lead us down a really destructive and dangerous path, but God wants to help. He is always wanting to help. He isn't sitting there waiting for us to do it all alone either. You know... He doesn't go, "Pull up your boot straps, Son and then come talk to me."<br />
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No. He says, "Are you having trouble pulling up those boot straps, Son? Come and see Me and we'll do it together."<br />
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So, that's what I was saying. We can't even get these things out of our own lives until we get a secure foundation under us. We have to be totally secure in knowing how much we are loved and valued before we will let go of our dark stuff.<br />
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As I was saying this, suddenly I saw this vision... just for a few seconds. It was clear though. It was like I saw this tunnel and, at the end of it stood Jesus and He was completely bathed in bright, white light. That wasn't surprising. It does say in the Bible that "God is light and in Him there is no darkness at all."<br />
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What was remarkable about it was, I could see people being drawn toward Him. These people had darkness in them and on them. Vices. Habits. Sicknesses. Diseases. Addictions. You name it, they were riddled with junk and I thought, "They can't go to that kind of light. How can they?"<br />
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As I watched, the light drew them and as the people got closer to the light, I saw that the light had substance. I mean, it was like laser light. You know, laser surgery concentrates a beam of light directly onto an area and it removes cataracts or whatever needs removing.<br />
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I saw somebody going closer and closer and as they did, the dark stuff was kind of... zapped off of them by beams of laser liquid light. They didn't even notice. There was no pain. They didn't scream, "Hey! Give me back my vice!" The closer they got to the light, the more of their 'stuff' was removed by the laser.<br />
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I was babbling and telling my best friend what I saw. It was too cool. I understood that I was being shown a principle for getting rid of the junk in my life. Stop trying to be the lone ranger trying to deal with it alone and...go and get the emotional laser surgery I need.<br />
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It's encouraging to know that I don't have to have it all together before I approach Jesus. If I had to have it all together, I'd be in so much trouble, but I don't. He seemed, in the vision, to be absolutely thrilled to just help people get rid of their hurts and vices. I don't need to be told twice. I want it. The more dark emotions I have, the less room I have for good ones like joy, hope and peace and even medical doctors and science will tell you... too much negative emotions and stress can kill you.<br />
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One other thing... this surgery seems to have no waiting list. Everybody can be at the front of the line. Ha! I like it!hazelmayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14005835410158700757noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6964039212558125624.post-91385124039449836832011-01-15T13:33:00.000-05:002011-01-15T13:33:18.985-05:00I am a terrible bloggerI have great intentions. I want to blog faithfully.<br />
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The trouble is, I get distracted so easily by life. I want to work on finally finishing the first draft of the novel I'm working on, finish the creative non-fiction piece I'm working on, write a new song, rehearse the songs I've already written, sing somebody else's songs. I need to sweep, scrub, dust and try to convince myself I'm not really a slovenly schmuck who would rather write a Pulitzer Prize winner than be domestic.<br />
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I know I need to give time to family and friends before they think aliens abducted me from the face of the earth. My best friend, Kathy, watches for my tendency to 'hermit' and gently (or not so gently if I need it) tells me, "Get out of the house!"<br />
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I need to pray and read God's Word more. Yes. I do have a vital and living faith. It's not an addendum tacked on to my life. It IS my life. I would seriously be lost without God. It's not airy fairy either. It's brass tacks and down to earth faith. I talk to God. I don't talk AT Him. I just picture Him up there going, "Hey! HEY! How about just talking to Me instead of reciting the same prayer over and over and over again?"<br />
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I have a friend who does that to me. I mean, he doesn't pray to me, but when he talks to me, all he does is repeat the same old rhetoric every time. I mean, he is angry and bitter at this person and that person and he just goes around and around it, recounting his woes to me in technicolour and the stories never change. The words are exactly the same and it drives me bonkers. That is how I imagine God feels when we talk to Him as if He's a vending machine and prayers are our quarters.<br />
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Anyway, that was a rabbit trail and I go down them now and then. It's ok. Sometimes rabbit trails lead to a wonderland.<br />
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So, as I was saying, I want to blog and I get sidetracked and then, months go by and my blog sits there like an empty library just waiting to be filled with literary masterpieces... or even the crap I write. ;-) That was my sense of humour kicking in there. Don't comment that I should have more self esteem. If self deprecation is funny, I'll use it. If it's not funny, I won't. I was the class clown. Now I am the clown of blog-dom. I cannot pass up an opportunity to get a laugh.<br />
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This time, it will be different. I'm going to blog faithfully once a week for a whole year. This is a goal I am setting. I'm going to do it. Maybe. I hope. The phone is ringing. Hey. Are those cashews? Whoa. A new Facebook application. What are those dogs doing outside my window? Yawn. I could use a nap. January sales! You see? Distractions are me. I'm going to take a stab at writing weekly, but... we'll see. LOL!hazelmayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14005835410158700757noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6964039212558125624.post-1878307736716088542011-01-15T12:58:00.000-05:002011-01-15T12:58:24.933-05:00Great Commission How 2s and My Life: Women Teaching And Preaching? Sure!<a href="http://greatcommissionhow2s.blogspot.com/2009/01/women-teaching-and-preaching-sure.html">Great Commission How 2s and My Life: Women Teaching And Preaching? Sure!</a>hazelmayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14005835410158700757noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6964039212558125624.post-54013867125416911752010-10-09T17:12:00.001-04:002013-11-30T14:39:53.763-05:00One Afternoon In The Cool Club (The Teacher Who Cared)<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">I was teased mercilessly in elementary school. I was the weird kid. The smelly kid. The kid with the bad haircut; the second hand, ill-fitting clothes. I was picked last on every sports team. I was talked about, pointed at, giggled at and ostracized. I wanted to fit in, but I didn't have the right anything to be in 'The Cool Club'.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">That all changed one day in grade 7. For one unforgettable and life-changing afternoon, not only did I get let into 'The Cool Club', I was the queen of it. So what if I had to violate my conscience and sacrifice everything I believed in. I was in!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">Here is how it happened. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">As I said, I wasn't an athlete, but there was one talent I had in spades. I could write. I wanted to be a writer after graduation. That was my desire for as long as I could remember.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">The girls in 'The Cool Club' didn't like one of the other girls in the school. I don't know why (who ever knows with 'cool' girls). I remember that the girl's name was Rhonda and I didn't know her well, but she had never done anything to me, so what I did next can only be described as cruel and heartless. It was out of character for me, but I did it and the ramifications of what I did changed the entire course of my life. Forever. I think Dr. Phil calls it 'a pivotal moment'. Not that I watch him often, but the few times I have caught his show, I've heard him say that.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">So, my ticket to 'The Cool Club' came in the form of a song with warped lyrics. I could write stories, poems and songs from a very young age. By age 12, I had written tons and tons of lyrics. I wouldn't say they were all worthy of a prize, but they were preparing me to become a good songwriter/lyricist later on in life. I wrote a ridiculously cruel song about Rhonda. It took all of five minutes to write. Can I remember the lyrics? Not word for word, but it was about 'dog food'. "Puppykins dog food" was the title and it went on and on about how much you would hate to eat this dog food "unless you're like Rhonda... arf arf arf". I insinuated that she was a dog and in 1976, that was one of the worst things you could call a girl. It sure pales by today's comparisons, but back in the day, I was being very insulting. Again, this girl had done nothing to me and I knew... I knew fully well that what I was doing was wrong, but the girls in 'The Cool Club' were so taken with the song that I was basically knighted and inducted into 'The Cool Club' Hall of Fame instantly.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">For a whole afternoon, I got to hang out with the cool girls and do their cool things (which in retrospect were utterly boring). They wanted to eat lunch with me and they smiled at me and, for a change, I wasn't the object of their cruelty. It was usually me, but now I was in. The geek was in with the chic! I had sacrificed poor Rhonda to the wolves to preserve my own position in the school hierarchy. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">I know I know. You must be so disappointed in me. Does it make you feel better to know that my conscience was pricked to the core later that day when I heard the girls from 'The Cool Club' singing my song to Rhonda, who curled up in the corner and just sobbed and sobbed? It was the most bitter victory of my life. Hurray! I was cool... and a girl was crying her eyes out. I literally felt like I had sold my soul to the devil.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">Things got worse for me. Much worse. Be sure your sin will find you out!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">I had a teacher named Maureen McEwen. I liked her. She was tall and thin and matronly. If I was born to be a writer, Mrs. McEwen was born to be a teacher. She was strict, but fair and she could even be fun.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">Maureen McEwen heard the kids singing my song, taunting poor Rhonda. She saw Rhonda crying. Do you know what? She didn't even have to ask. She knew 'the cool girls' and she knew they couldn't come up with something like that. I mean, for all of its malice, the lines were clever. She had budding scientists and mathematicians and artists in her class, but she only had one that the teachers called 'a gifted writer'. She recognized my work as if I had signed my name to it. I was doomed and my time in 'The Cool Club' was almost up.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">I was walking down the hall towards my classroom when Mrs. McEwen stopped me dead in my tracks. She had me in the corner. Her bony finger impaled me as it pointed towards my guilty heart. I was shaking in my shoes before she even spoke. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">"Did you write a song about Rhonda?" </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">I wanted to deny it, but my face was already blushing. "Yes."</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">It would have been easier if she had said, "Then go to the principal's office" or "Write me some lines" or "You've got detention". NO! Not this teacher. She was going to follow through and teach this lesson in a way that I couldn't forget. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">"Sing it for me."</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">"What?"</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">"Sing the song for me. Right now. All of it."</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">I did not want to sing it to her. Not only because it was the teacher I was singing to, but every word of that song stabbed my conscience so hard that it was hard not to cry myself. What had possessed me to do such a thing? To hurt somebody else just because I wanted to be liked? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">I sang the song in a pretty shaky voice. It was the longest 30 seconds of my life. It was like I was standing before God singing something dirty.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">There were a few seconds of silence before Mrs. McEwen's finger pointed at me again like a rapier. The words she spoke next are etched in my brain like a brand. I have never ever forgotten it and it has been like a rudder for my ship all these years.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">"You use that God-given talent for good." </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">And then, she walked away.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times;">I was booted from 'The Cool Club' that day and good riddance to them. I couldn't tell you most of their names now.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">I was 12 years old then. I'm 45 now and, do you know what, I hear Mrs. McEwen's words ringing in my ears every time I write songs, plays, stories... anything! It forever changed my course. It may have saved my life in some ways. That teacher didn't only teach me reading and writing. She mentored me. She steered my life in the right direction.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">Every time I write, I think of her. I try to do the best job I can to be a good writer and, even when I'm writing about something difficult, to do it with lots of grace; to never deliberately malign people with it. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">A few years ago, Mrs. McEwen passed away and I went to her wake. Two of her sisters were there, who were also teachers by profession. I had the privilege of sharing this story with them. I wanted them to know that I considered that moment with their sister, to be the most important and impacting moment in all of my years of schooling. You should have seen the smiles on their faces. They knew me as well. Could it be that she knew? Did she see my writing? Did she hear my songs? Did it ever occur to her that she was a beacon shining for me and saying, "This is the way. Walk ye in it"?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">This Thanksgiving, I am thankful for the teacher who cared.</span>hazelmayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14005835410158700757noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6964039212558125624.post-11995299236696675622010-09-06T17:35:00.000-04:002010-09-06T17:35:29.232-04:00No Runts In The Litter<div class="MsoNormal">I am not afraid to say that I have been having dreams and visions since I was in kindergarten. I remember the first one happening while I was on the kindergarten bus being transported to <st1:place><st1:placename>Walter</st1:placename> <st1:placename>Zadow</st1:placename> <st1:placetype>Public School</st1:placetype></st1:place>. I didn’t know it was a vision then, but I had the same vision on numerous occasions and, being a kid, didn’t realize what I was seeing.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">That being said, I still don’t always know what I’m seeing, but I’m getting better at it. I’m getting better at approaching the symbols in my dreams and the colours and the messages from God in them and I usually get the interpretation fairly quickly. Sometimes not, but we’re working on it. I am NOT a psychic or a medium. I can’t talk to your dead auntie or pick out your lottery numbers, but I get dreams and visions from God on a regular enough basis to pay attention. I have dreamed at least six houses that I lived in six months or more before the fact. I know that there’s something to it and I love that God talks to us today if we’re willing to tune the radio to His station. His station is playing all the time just like the radio stations are always playing in your town, but you don’t hear today’s top ten list on Bob FM unless you put the dial there, do you? Well… I think you get the drift.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">So last weekend, at the start of my holidays, I went to a conference that changed my life because I got healed of some major ailments there. This was stuff that had been plaguing me for a long time. I believe the healing is ongoing as I keep noticing stuff changing in my body and I can’t thank God enough. I don’t like diseases and I’ve spent enough of my life in hospitals to be sick to death of them, so if I can get rid of sickness, good riddance to it!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Anyway, I was at the conference and I was enjoying the music. I was worshipping. I was singing. I sat back and closed my eyes to just appreciate the sound of hundreds of voices all singing in harmony. It was a beautiful sound. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">As I leaned back in the seat and closed my eyes, all of a sudden, the movie screen that I sometimes get opened up in front of me and there came a vision. It was a strange one. It made me wrinkle my forehead and go, ‘what’? </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">I saw an animal lying on its side. I don’t know what kind of animal it was. It could have been a dog or it could have been a pig. I know it couldn’t be a cow or a horse because they don’t lie down to feed their young.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">This animal’s teats were full of milk. Like, the mama whazzit was ready to feed her litter of babies. She was sooooo full of milk and then, in came the babies and in the vision, it was like I was one of the babies. I know that’s weird, but it will make sense. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">I did what I always do. “What’s that?” I asked. I heard God’s voice quite clearly saying, “There are no runts in my litter.” </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">It made me laugh. Like… what? What are you talking about? But, I come from the country. I do understand the way of litters. Dog litters. Cat litters. Pig litters. There is always a runt on the farm. You know what a runt is. It’s that one poor little thing that the other fat puppies/kitties/piglets shove out of the way because they’re bigger and weigh more. They get the best of the milk from the mother and the runt is left with the leftovers, the dregs, and is usually small and skinny and in real danger of dying if it doesn’t get enough food. Sometimes an animal mother will even abandon the runt.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">So, God says. “There are no runts.” And in my vision, it was true. There was enough milk in that mama for all her brood. Plenty. Enough milk to give them all fat full little bellies and to make them very happy little babies.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">I smiled. This was nice to know, but God spoke again and said, “You think you’re the runt.” </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Huh? No! No! I don’t think that!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Yes. You do. You always reason away why I’ll heal and help every other kid in my kingdom… except you. You think I love the others more. You think I don’t have enough blessings to go around, so you’ll ‘sacrifice’ and settle for whatever you can get.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Oh-oh. I think I just got told off… it was kind even so. It wasn’t a mean scolding. Just… well… I needed to hear it. I realized that it was absolutely true. I believed God could help me. I believed God could heal me. I just didn’t think I was all that important in the ‘litter’… in the pecking order. Let Him heal some great person who is destined to change the world and I’ll just be happy sitting here in pain and suffering and waiting for Heaven and the afterlife. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">You know what? That didn’t make God happy. He wasn’t interested in my willingness to sacrifice my health and wellbeing for the bigger puppies in the litter. In the vision I had, it was like he was shoving me toward the milk. He was telling me to go and get it. He was telling me there’s plenty for everyone and He is not running out. So, stop going hungry and get in there and get what you need!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">“Ok. I’m so sorry for thinking like that, God. You are the best Father and You always provide the best for your children.”</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Even you?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Even me.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">I got healed that night of the following list of ailments:<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>hiatus hernia is gone; gastrointestinal reflux disease is gone; asthma is nearly completely gone - I’m having a little squeak here and there, but my friends know how often that thing almost killed me and I’m not wheezing or taking meds all the time; my digestive issues are gone. Everything is working the way it’s supposed to. No more pain. I was in so much pain in the past few months that I was crying and desperate and missing work and could hardly eat. I would fast for fear of the pain. The pain has left the building. I’m eating normally again. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">So, there are no runts in the litter after all. If God will help me, then I know He will help you, so stop thinking your problems aren’t important to Him or that He’ll help everybody else… except you. His love for His children is measureless. You are loved by Him. Your problems and all the circumstances facing you are not God being angry with you or wanting to harm you. He wants to help you. Just… tell Him yes, will you? He was waiting for me to say yes and really mean it and accept that I was truly loved and not just tolerated by Him. He loves me and… even more… He likes me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">I’m not saying we don’t have stuff in our lives that needs changing. We all sport attitudes or have issues that we would like help with, but that’s the thing. He wants to help. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">After what happened to me last weekend, I don’t care anymore. I don’t care who likes it or who doesn’t. I don’t care if people even laugh at me. I’m running in full throttle like a fat little greedy puppy and I… want… the… milk!!! There are NO RUNTS in God’s litter!</div>hazelmayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14005835410158700757noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6964039212558125624.post-7537485072882342222010-09-03T13:43:00.000-04:002010-09-03T13:43:39.556-04:00A Response to Stephen Hawking<div class="MsoNormal">Stephen Hawking says that we don’t need God anymore. He can speak for himself. God knows how much I need to believe in a being that is higher than myself. If I’m it. If I’m all there is, that’s a sad statement. I wouldn’t even call that evolution. I would call it devolution. </div><div class="MsoNormal">No. I’m not dissing myself. I’m not a loser or a ne’er do well, but I’m certainly not the picture of perfection. If I’m it, evolution has been a failed experiment indeed.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I know Mr. Hawking is a brilliant scientist. He has studied atoms and quantum physics and all of those high things that show us how the world works. Still, knowledge is one thing. Wisdom is another and this brilliant brilliant scientist has a serious lack of wisdom going on. I mean, he’s going on and on about how we have to go and settle other planets if we want to survive as a species and yet, we mustn’t contact alien life forms or we’re in big trouble. </div><div class="MsoNormal">This guy wants to tell me whether I need God or not? Sorry, Stephen. Your knowledge has puffed you up, as knowledge without wisdom always does. You go on worshipping science as that is your religion and I’ll go on worshipping God who has forgotten more about science than you know.</div><div class="MsoNormal">And according to Frances Collins, another brilliant scientist and the man who unlocked the human genome, creation does not negate the existence of God, but illustrates and strongly suggests that He is there. And since I don’t see <st1:country-region><st1:place>Frances</st1:place></st1:country-region> in the press uttering all kinds of ludicrous things about alien life forms and real life Star Trek expeditions, I think I will get my science from him and not you.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Oh I know. The politically correct police are going to lambaste me now for thinking I’m persecuting a man in a wheelchair. That’s not the issue here. Stephen Hawking has made a name for himself in the scientific community for being one of the most gifted scientists in the world, but he has had a few forays into the press that indicate his stability may be in question and this man is presuming to tell the whole world what to believe. </div><div class="MsoNormal">What’s next, Stephen? Should we stop being kind to each other as we don’t need morality and human decency anymore? Should these things go the way of the dodo bird? Should we stop caring for those less fortunate in society (such as people in wheelchairs) for, if there is no God, there is no need to obey a moral code and we can do as we please.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><st1:city><st1:place>Darwin</st1:place></st1:city> noticed a huge flaw in his theory of natural selection. He said that he observed that a dog would go by an ailing cat every day and would lick it and exhibit kindness toward the cat. He said that if natural selection were correct, that animals would have no capacity for kindness, but would simply be competing with each other without restraint in order for the fittest and best to survive. (I paraphrased, but that’s what he was saying.)</div><div class="MsoNormal">You have been staring at test tubes and microscopes for too long. You aren’t looking at humanity and the biggest evidence of God that there is. Human beings are born with the knowledge that there is a right and there is a wrong. They have some kind of leaning toward a moral code of some kind. That would not be present in any way, shape or form if we were all just an accidental mound of goop, if our existence were just nature’s way of keeping meat fresh. We would be killing each other at will. We would be stealing each other’s stuff with no restraint. No law. Taking what we want, for we are living out the theory of ‘survival of the fittest’. </div><div class="MsoNormal">It doesn’t happen that way, though. Does it, Stephen Hawking? Even a dog will nurse a cat’s young. Dolphins have rescued human beings in the ocean from sharks or from drowning. There is <st1:city><st1:place>Darwin</st1:place></st1:city>’s kind dog, licking the cat every time it walks by. </div><div class="MsoNormal">The same God who initiated the big bang; the same God who designed all of the universe we enjoy; that same God shows His existence so clearly and so often, and yet brilliant scientists and fools refuse to see it. He couldn’t illustrate His existence any clearer to me, the simple writer who dares to look for Him. </div><div class="MsoNormal">Of course, you could not admit to God’s existence, could you, Stephen? That would suggest that there was someone greater than you. Worship of oneself is foolish because we’re here today and we’re gone tomorrow. We make very weak and paltry gods. </div><div class="MsoNormal">I haven’t even bothered to bring up Dawkins and Hitchens here as I’m only dealing with Stephen Hawking’s words to the press yesterday. I have the same argument for the claims of those men. Yes. I respect them as brilliant scientists and excellent journalists, but I do not draw their conclusions from the evidence that they seem to twist and manipulate at will. I hate that the young are drawn to their arguments. Of course they are. The young do not have the capacity to understand when they’ve been duped.</div><div class="MsoNormal">So, you can go ahead, Stephen, and believe in nothing. Believe that all of this just happened by accident. I can’t even throw two slices of bread, a butter knife and an open jar of peanut butter around and get a sandwich, but you can believe that all of the universe was random. </div><div class="MsoNormal">Believe what you want, Mr. Stephen Hawking. Believe in disbelief. Spend your whole life examining what God created, missing the forest for the trees. Frankly, I don’t have enough faith to believe in nothing. </div>hazelmayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14005835410158700757noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6964039212558125624.post-5779360010842884942010-08-25T14:12:00.000-04:002010-08-25T14:12:46.785-04:00The Enchanted Island<div class="MsoNormal">I had a wonderful time with the kids watching the fireworks competition at the park beside the Casino de Lac Leamy on Saturday night. Four countries were showcased in the grand finale, the culmination of three weeks worth of entries from various nations around the world. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">We watched breath-taking displays from <st1:country-region><st1:place>China</st1:place></st1:country-region>, <st1:country-region><st1:place>Portugal</st1:place></st1:country-region>, The United States and <st1:country-region><st1:place>Germany</st1:place></st1:country-region>. <st1:country-region><st1:place>Germany</st1:place></st1:country-region>, set to the tune of <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Amazing Grace</i>, won the crown this year. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">As we walked back from the beach toward the park, extolling the wonder of the pyrotechnics we had just witnessed, a disco band took the stage and the kids ended up dancing and jumping around to tunes that were cheesy when I heard them the first time, in 1978. Still, they were having pure, unabashed fun without the aid of alcohol or narcotics and they seemed to marvel at the fact that this was possible and that they were having more fun than those vices afford without the headache or empty wallet the next morning. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">So, it was fun to see them having fun. If “Disco Inferno” taught them that valuable lesson, I will have to concede… finally… begrudgingly… that disco had a purpose.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">We ate hot dogs that cost a buck (oh yeah! Thanks for not gouging us!) and helped locate the owner of a set of lost keys that we found under the picnic table where we were eating.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">And then, it was time to go to… The Enchanted <st1:place>Island</st1:place>. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">We were beside the casino, its superfluous row of fountains spewing out enough water to hydrate The Congo, lights changing the water purple, pink, red and yellow. Limousines pulled in to the grounds. We saw Porsches. We saw Bentleys. We saw any number of cars that cost more than the entire year’s budget for the homeless shelter. Valets waited on these people like they were royalty and that is part of the whole fairy tale, isn’t it?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">The kids wanted to experience the casino. I didn’t want to go that badly, but being there would keep them from doing something foolish with their money and would also make sure they could get home as they didn’t seem to think ahead enough to figure out that transit stops at <st1:time hour="0" minute="0">midnight</st1:time>. Like Cinderella’s coachmen, they turn back into mice… or something like that.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">So, we went in and they tried slot machines and poker machines and the bells chimed and the buzzers whizzed and the lights blinked and it was all very awesome-looking and mesmerizing at first. Here we were on The Enchanted Island where money floats in the people’s heads like the dance of the sugarplum fairy. And like the sugarplums, the money is a dream too. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">We saw reams of money coming out of the wallets of desperate gamblers thinking that maybe if they play one more time, this will be the big one. Another group of singers were murdering ‘The Beatles’, smiling even though people were gambling all around them and paying them absolutely no attention.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Then, after a little time passed by, my daughter, in her wisdom, pipes up. “This is boring, isn’t it? How do people do this every day?”</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Well, my Darling, it’s the enchanted island. It seems magical. It seems like another world. It promises big things, but you walk out feeling small and when the spell wears off, and you go back to sweeping the cinders, you just feel like a fool. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">I couldn’t have given them a better lesson in life if I tried. They came. They saw. We left a little less rich, but so much wiser. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">False hope. You liar. You hold so many people in your clutches and they are so taken with the lights and the bells and the magic that they don’t see the dead men’s bones strewn about the entrance to your lair. Broken families. Weeping souls. You leave nothing but a bitter taste and destruction in your wake.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Turn off the music, Sweetheart, and strip off that gaudy makeup. You’re wasting your efforts on me. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
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</div>hazelmayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14005835410158700757noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6964039212558125624.post-68340990907239594762010-08-21T18:57:00.000-04:002010-08-21T18:57:15.794-04:00Letter to the Lost Generation - The Love Rant<div class="MsoNormal">Dear Lost Generation,</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">I apologize on behalf of my generation. We have failed you miserably. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">When I was young, love was patient and kind. Now, love is nothing more than kissing, groping and bruising each other with little or no clothing on MTV music videos. It’s who does who and how sexy you look and then it’s over as quickly as a summer storm.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">When I was young, love was not selfish and didn’t insist on its own way. It sacrificed for the greater good, for the wellbeing of others. Now, love is money and how much a person spent to buy that ring/car/video game/insert shallow material product here.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">When I was young, a movie told us that love meant never having to say you’re sorry. We already knew better than that. We knew that love means saying sorry… often. It also means saying “Forgive me” <st1:stockticker>AND</st1:stockticker> “I forgive you.” </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">When I was young, love was not arrogant or puffed up. It humbly served, happy to do so because hey, when you love someone, you want to serve that person and do wonderful things for their benefit. Now, love means coming around and being all sweet and wonderful… until you get sex. Then it turns off like a tap. It’s instant like microwave food and then cools off just as quickly.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">When I was young, love would never fail. It would sail rough seas. It would even argue sometimes. It would get rough, but in the end, when the dust settled, love was still there. Now, it’s cheap, “Made in <st1:country-region><st1:place>Taiwan</st1:place></st1:country-region>” plastic, but don’t worry. There will be another season of The Bachelor in a few months.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">When I was young, love bore all things, believed all things and endured all things. We believed in those we loved. We knew they weren’t perfect, but we gave them the dignity and respect they deserved and we naturally knew that was the right thing to do when you love someone. Now, love lasts five minutes and after it’s over, you murder the character of the one you ‘loved’ on Facebook or, if you’re lucky enough to get interviewed, you do it on Dr. Phil.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">When I was young, there was no greater love than to lay down your life for a friend. Now, we don’t love our friends enough to lay down carpeting for them or lend them a hand or even a buck. It’s all me me me and if you fall down, I’ll step over you, “Friend”, and be on my way.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">When I was young, God was love. We were grateful for sunrises and sunsets and trees and flowers and beautiful things in creation. Even those who were a little naughty among us – you know, that drank a little too much or got into mischief, even those ones would acknowledge and thank God for their daily food and knew He was loving. Now, God isn’t love. He isn’t even there. Apparently, all this stuff happened as a weird, ridiculously impossible accident and, due to Christopher Hitchens’ legitimately negative experiences with religious people and politics, not only is God not love, He isn’t even great.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">When I was young, love conquered all and covered a multitude of sins. The person we loved might be an utter jerk, but they were our utter jerk and they were accepted, fed, cared for solely on the basis of the fact that we loved them and could overlook a few faults. Now, love is for those who can afford Botox and Jenny Craig’s diet plan. One ounce or wrinkle this way or that way, and the umpires on <st1:country-region><st1:place>America</st1:place></st1:country-region>’s Top Whatever scream, “Yooooooooou’re out!”</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">When I was young, love was a commandment. Love God with all your heart and love your neighbour as yourself. Sometimes the love was sappy and huggy and sometimes it was a kick in the pants to set you back on the straight and narrow, but either way, it made you a better person. It was a prescription to ward off heart-sickness and loneliness. It meant laughter and squabbles and having to buy an extra box of popsicles so that every kid in your back yard (who are all these kids playing with mine anyway?) got one. It meant sometimes having to have the kid on your ball team who couldn’t hit the ball worth a darn. It meant sharing and lending. It meant helping to build the neighbour’s barn when it burned. It meant making a casserole for the neighbour who just had a baby or lost her husband. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Yes. Lost Generation. These things really existed. They aren’t myths like Big Foot and the Loch Ness Monster. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Of all the things that have gone extinct, I think I miss real love the most. It wasn’t some weak, flighty, passing craze. It was rough, tough, gritty and sweet. It’s what we need to stop all these kids from shooting up their classmates, doing drugs and committing suicide. It’s a companion to faith and hope, which we forgot to dole out to this generation too. We threw those things out when we decided our parents’ way of doing things wasn’t cool.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Can we get it back? You betcha. And I look forward to seeing a new generation of dissatisfied youngsters rising up to say, “Enough of this crap! I want something real!” Enough of this fluffy froufrou "love". The tingly feelings are great and they’re an expression of love, but real love starts on the days when those feelings aren’t there. The feelings come and go. They go up and down. They depend on moods and stress and hormones. They can wax and wane like the moon. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Love is a decision. Love is an act of your will. It rides out the low tide knowing that the high tide will return.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">If we want it back. If we want the real love that goes the distance, it will cost us nothing and it will cost us everything. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">How do we get it back? It starts off small. An act of kindness here. A good word there. A pat on the back. A smile. A prayer. The setting aside of grudges. Letting somebody else have a turn. Taking a second to stop and think that the guy who just cut you off on the highway might have just lost his job or received news that his wife's got cancer. Just cutting each other some slack instead of flipping the bird or letting the f bomb fly every time there's the slightest irritation.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">It’s not that simple, you say. I say. Oh yes it is. The sooner we realize that each of us are not all by ourselves living in individual little bubbles, the sooner we can go back and find where we dropped the axe head. It will come floating right up to the surface of the water where we can scoop it up and start back where we made the mistake of throwing love away in the first place.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Will we do it?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">I hope. Oh… do I hope!</div>hazelmayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14005835410158700757noreply@blogger.com1